Ah.
Finally everything is over. A levels done. Just like that.
Who would've guessed it would just fly by so fast.

To be honest I'm experiencing mixed feelings at the moment.
Relief that the A's are over and I survived. Restless in that I have taken a step closer to my dreams. Elation over all the friends that I made. Disappointment in all that I have failed to achieve. Sadness in all that I have to let go. Somber in all that I will have to give up.
This compounded with things that have been happening... Haha I think I could qualify for an emotional wreck.
I don't know what to feel.
Maybe it all cancels out and I'm indifferent about everything holistically.

My two years in RJ have really been eventful and I would never trade anything for the memories that I have accumulated. Well these are all that I have left of RJ. Ok maybe including the friends that I still know. Haha.

Junior college life has had its ups and downs. Its peaks and its nadirs. I admit, life wasn't smooth sailing. Haha if you know me well then you should well understand why; but hey I learnt so much these two years and this would be discounting all the stuff included in the curriculum.
Yeah sure I learnt about the mechanism of respiration and how to solve differential equations, but there was more that JC life gave me.
It gave me lessons that no textbook or tutor could ever give. It taught me lessons on life itself.
My first "love", my first heartache, my first reconciliation. What to do, when to do, how to do.
I think these are the experiences that I will take away from JC and that I will never forget.
For that I am thankful. Thankful to everyone who contributed to my learning and everyone who ever believed in me. Thank you. Yes especially you. Without you I would have been nothing.

If there's another thing that I want to take away from RJ and never ever lose, it would be all the friendships forged. Ok maybe not all. Haha we have to be realistic here. Yeah there would be people who I lose touch with and who I may totally forget. That's just part and parcel of life. We move away from the past and enter the future. However there are some people that I really want to hold on to. It's like a bond formed without me being aware of it. Now that I think of it, I wouldn't know what I'd be without these people. Like a lost soul without his bearings. I really do pray that I manage to keep in contact with such friends. I really do.

Gosh the thought that today would be the last day seeing most of my friends (excluding results day) is really scary. Haha maybe that's why all these weird emotions are running havoc.
I don't know. I don't know.

I pray it turns out alright.






Damnit. And it all just came rushing back. To think that I was deluding myself all this while. What was I thinking... I will not mess this up again. That I promise.